just put the boy to sleep and had a big glass of red wine. i actually savored it instead of sneaking it. petite sirah---not my fave but it'll sure do.
so here are some of my dreams.
- become a photographer
- make jewelry
- become a gemologist
- go to cosmetology school
- do something singy
- be a piano player for events
- freaking do SOMETHING
that's it. that's enough though, those are some good dreams.
but i don't even want to type them. because the voice inside my head says DUMB. you can't do that, you're behind, you're not good enough, you're not smart enough, you're not skinny enough, you don't want to work long hours or weekends do you, you're not southern enough, you're not savvy enough, you're awkward, and lastly, just try keeping up with the laundry, you have enough to do.
buhhh, that voice is horrible.
why is it so mean? why doesn't it say yeah great idea! do that! how can you take one step toward any of your goals today? why does it have to be mean?
anyone else have a mean head voice? anyone else want to dream and take action with me?
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